Hey...

Dear Lord,

Tonight I hung out with Sierra. Sometimes I worry if things are crossing over into lesbian territory, but I know I shouldn't. I am thankful that you put her in my life and me in hers. Can you help us? We want to move out because she's suffering listening to Brian and Estella procreate. I want to leave because I am more productive on my own and I think I am old enough. If it is your will, then we will move out this summer. That gives us five months. I ask you to help us do this. Give us money, and discipline to achieve this goal. Oh and a nice condo discounted that allows pets would be great too. :-) I think about the people that suffer from tsunamis. And the wind. Is it from you. If you remain silent then the wind can't be you but it can bring messages. Subtle hints. Are you a spy? You can't tell us where you are or what you're doing but only that its for our own good. You are one of the good guys. I feel like I am supposed to be more involved in ICCYG, but the sorority is important to me too. Am I supposed to be there or here?Woodpecker. I think I'll talk to Jessica. She might help me. I feel like church is home and I want other kids to feel that way too. Why is it like home to me and not them? Am I special because I feel this way? Do you want me to help them and teach them? I feel the same way about this that I do getting my AEMT and an English Degree. People either praise me for following my dreams or condemn me for not doing something practical. Is this a way to teach me to stand up for myself when it comes to my dreams? and what I feel I have to do? Following you comes with challenges. So far it's been really hard defending myself. I feel like I am disappointing people and not living up to their expectations. The only one you have to live up to is me. Do what you want me to do. For the past few days I have doubted that I chose the right thing for me to do. I want to teach...through stories. I could be a teacher. I could do it. I so don't want to, but if you need me to....ICCYG! Youth Minister (Later), novelist, EMT. That brings a smile to my face. You know I don't see a sorority anywhere in there. I could be disappointing people there too. Oh well.

Lord, thank you. I really appreciate this talk. Thank you for blessing me with everything that I have: every person, experience, object and talent. I want to do well for you Lord. I want to love you the way You love me. I love You. I love You. Lord. I love You.

Ashley-Amen