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Dear Lord/God,

I am so tired. I've been staring at this stupid blanket and trying to figure out how to do the trim. Lord, please guide my hands tomorrow while I work on it. I also ask that you guide my hands tonight as I write. I've been scared and tired to pray. No excuse, I know. I'm sorry. Look over Sierra and James. I pray for both of them. I also pray for Sam and his blonde friend. I pray for Michelle and Quin and the girl he kept talking to. I pray for Scott. I hope that he didn't take my comment offensively. I pray for Nathon at Sonic and his coworkers. I ask you to watch over my future husband and make him who you created him to be. I ask you to look and watch over Peter and help him with his time and energy. Lord, I want to help you in the church.  I want to be there, but I'm frightened. I put so much energy into DG. It wasn't a waste. Now I have a basis for my story. I'm so brave in my bedroom for the door is closed, but I have nothing, no resolve when it's open. I'm sorry. What am I supposed to do? Do I leave them? Do I stay? Do I....I do. I do want to get married to the person you destined for me. I'm not sure if he's out there. The little boy was so cute. I can't help myself. I just want...is that bad? I don't want to treat you like a genie. Want again... Lord, you know the intentions of my heart, my ambitions, my talents, my future. Help me Lord. I could spread the message, Your message to the girls. What do you want?

Signed,
Talking too much to listen

Hey...

Dear Lord,

Tonight I hung out with Sierra. Sometimes I worry if things are crossing over into lesbian territory, but I know I shouldn't. I am thankful that you put her in my life and me in hers. Can you help us? We want to move out because she's suffering listening to Brian and Estella procreate. I want to leave because I am more productive on my own and I think I am old enough. If it is your will, then we will move out this summer. That gives us five months. I ask you to help us do this. Give us money, and discipline to achieve this goal. Oh and a nice condo discounted that allows pets would be great too. :-) I think about the people that suffer from tsunamis. And the wind. Is it from you. If you remain silent then the wind can't be you but it can bring messages. Subtle hints. Are you a spy? You can't tell us where you are or what you're doing but only that its for our own good. You are one of the good guys. I feel like I am supposed to be more involved in ICCYG, but the sorority is important to me too. Am I supposed to be there or here?Woodpecker. I think I'll talk to Jessica. She might help me. I feel like church is home and I want other kids to feel that way too. Why is it like home to me and not them? Am I special because I feel this way? Do you want me to help them and teach them? I feel the same way about this that I do getting my AEMT and an English Degree. People either praise me for following my dreams or condemn me for not doing something practical. Is this a way to teach me to stand up for myself when it comes to my dreams? and what I feel I have to do? Following you comes with challenges. So far it's been really hard defending myself. I feel like I am disappointing people and not living up to their expectations. The only one you have to live up to is me. Do what you want me to do. For the past few days I have doubted that I chose the right thing for me to do. I want to teach...through stories. I could be a teacher. I could do it. I so don't want to, but if you need me to....ICCYG! Youth Minister (Later), novelist, EMT. That brings a smile to my face. You know I don't see a sorority anywhere in there. I could be disappointing people there too. Oh well.

Lord, thank you. I really appreciate this talk. Thank you for blessing me with everything that I have: every person, experience, object and talent. I want to do well for you Lord. I want to love you the way You love me. I love You. I love You. Lord. I love You.

Ashley-Amen

Every day

Dear Lord, 

I want to thank you for being amazing. Every day I doubt that I made the right decision. Every day you prove that I didn't. Thank you for doing that. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to take a leap of faith and trust in you. I love you Lord. I am amazed and surprised by you every day. Thank you. I pray for strength. May the Catholic Church stay strong under your watchful eye. I pray that your children come to know you and love you. 

Always, Amen

I'm Back

Dear God,

Looking at my graph, I have just missed one of the nights of praying to you, well besides the other ones. I still believe in fairy tales, I still believe there's someone who loves me. I want to thank you for everything today. Thank you for the blessings and the amazing gifts. Lord, thank you for providing me the will to find my check, the interaction with Sierra, and Nathanael. Are you letting me see things so I can help you? I don't know Lord. I am very thankful. Those events helped to reaffirm my belief that I'm doing the right thing by writing. Now I just have to choose my minor and what language to take. Psychology and Spanish (?) I love you Lord. I am sorry I don't always show it. I am lazy, and mean and cruel and selfish. I am sorry about that. I love you. You are amazing. I love you and your son. I love you, your son, and the holy spirit. I love you, your son, the holy spirit, and my brothers and sisters on this earth. Now just show it. I love you.

Forever yours,

Ashley

I'm Sorry

Lord,

I'm sorry about my comment. I apologized and I hope that they will forgive me. I feel so disappointed. I'm sorry. I love you. You are amazing. It is so much easier to love You when I'm in church. I pray that I can carry Your lessons over from church to reality. I love You. You are awesome. I love You.

Amen.

Hello God

Thank you for the wonderful day today. I am so thankful that you put Frank and Eileen in our lives at that moment. Sharing love was great. It really helped. I appreciate everything you have done for me. On Monday, I am going to talk to Joe about switching my major. I pray for Angela and Matthew and Char and Sue and Mike and Linda may they find healing in you. I pray for my future spouse. May I find him before the year 2014 ends and learn how to be a good person for him and you. I ask that you look over him. Show him your love and help him accept who he is. I pray for Caleb and Sierra. Help motivate him to do things in life, and help her with her romance. I ask you to watch over Estella and Brian. It is so cool that she has accepted someone in her heart already so soon after Scott went to live with you. As always, even if I don't say it, bless the words I write. Help me to share your message. Amen. Let my check be in the mail on Monday. Amen Lord. I love you.

G You're Great

Lord, 

Today was sad. I wasn't sad that you took Robbie. I was sad that Matthew has to grow up without a father. I know he has you. I just hope that you can help them. I want to teach him about You and bring Angela closer to you but I'm afraid. I haven't been the best at youth group this year and I'm sorry. I'm also sorry that I wasn't there for Angela or Char. I was afraid too. Why do I live in fear? Because of acceptance. I want to be accepted. I want to be loved. You love me. I love you. I pray that you keep putting me in uncomfortable situations. Help me grow and do your will Lord. I love you. Amen. 

Slightly Sorry

Dear Lord, I'm sorry I didn pray to you deeply yesterday. I'm making up for it now. You are amazing. Thank you for all the blessings in my life, my amazing fiends and family and the people you need me to help. I want to change majors for you. I feel like I should. I think it's right but I just want to make sure it's what you want me to do. Not my ego telling me. Maria and the facilitator says that you remain silent, but can't the Holy Spirt help a little? Tell you what, I'll keep writing and pushing through. (Thank you for that by the way. 😊) I ask you to help Angela, Char, Matthew and Sue tomorrow. Please let tomorrow be the closure they need. It probably won't be easy but they'll recover. Thank you for the time Robbie had. I can't wait to learn more about him. Lord I love you. I ask that you look over my sister, my friends, her friends, my parents, please help them ins my moms wedding ring. Look over my grandparents. And all the people who have/had/are being persecuted for your sake. I love you Lord. I wonder what love language I speak and what you speak. Please have my check from Wild Island be in the box tomorrow. I love you. Thank you for the Doyle. Thank you Lord. 

 Amen. 

End of Day

Dear Lord,

Thank you for the amazing gifts of today. Thank you for the gift of my family and us being able to sit down and eat together. Thank you for the gift of Sierra and her family. Thank you for putting everyone in my life that I need. I am grateful that you care so much about me that you gave up your only son and do what's best for me always. Please, let my checks from Doyle and Wild Island be in the mailbox tomorrow. I know you know better than I do what I need, but I have nothing to say. It was so cool today during math that you directed my writing. I wasn't afraid of Tony or anyone else reading it. I was fine and ready to write your story. Thank you Lord. Please help Char come into money. Help my mother find her wedding ring. Saint Anthony, I'm sending you a CC with that one. Help Sierra and her mother reach peace. Help Angela and Matthew and Sue during this tough time. May they find peace in you. Lord, I also ask for protection for the people suffering from Natural Disasters or as you might call them a readjustment period. Protect the people that love you from demons and devils and the people fighting for you in the Middle East. Thank you so much Lord. I love you.

Always,
Ashley

10/15/14

Dear God,

I'm back, logging on you could say. I don't want to do my homework. Is is Senioritis striking again? I also am not feeling my writing. I think that in order to write for you and do your will I have to pray before I write. Not that I have to be any good at it, but just to connect with you if only for a second to help spread your word. I said hi to people today and I liked it. Do I go home and get my stuff for my book report and check the mail and turn in my library book? Ok, that answer is simple. It's Wednesday but it feels like Thursday. I have a lot of stuff (homework to do). Why do I procrastinate, ok I know the answer to that one. Why does it happen so often? Ok, know that answer too. Do you ever get bored hearing the same story over and over again from me? I know we're all unique and you made us to do different things. I ask that my checks be in my dad's mailbox when I check it today. Please let them be there Lord. I also ask that my sister has a great day at school today and gets closer to you. I wonder if the prayers you don't answer are a way to tell us that we have to get off of our lazy butts and do something. Well I'm going to class Lord. I love you. The window behind me is now warm. I love you Lord.

Ashley

10/14/14

Hello God,

It's me again. I am somewhat keeping up with my prayers. That's good I think. I feel it's good. It must make you happy to hear from your children. I think of my father who called me tonight just to talk even though we had spent a pretty decent amount of time together. You must want to hear. I want to thank you for my big sorority sis. She is so kind. I also want to thank you for all of the gifts I have received that in my eyes have been less than perfect. I have been envious of others and their gifts and I shouldn't do that. Please help me foster a loving relationship with others. Lord, it was so great smiling at everyone at the Marina tonight. I felt happy especially when someone returned the smile. I pray for Sierra and I ask you to grant her the wisdom to know that her mom is not out to get her. Help her know the reasons why her mom speaks the way she does. I ask that you help Char. Give her a good paying job this year that will help her burden. I pray for the persecuted. May you protect them from physical and mental harm. Look over my sister. Help her transform into the woman she is meant to be: Your Woman. It was so cool to hear her talk about Saints. I pray that she becomes more interested in church. Lord, please have the mail carrier deliver my checks from Doyle and Wild Island tomorrow. I have been patient and have dealt with them slightly. Please don't make me do it again. Thank you for the blessings you have given me. Show me what to do about writing. I love you and am thankful to be one of your chosen people. I love you Lord.

Amen

Need You

Dear God,

I tried to be loving today. I didn't do a very good job but there were some proud of you moments I think. I like listening to K-Love but sometimes I feel like it's not very cool. Lord, I ask you to watch over Ashley Lorea. I don't know what happened today but I hope and ask that everything is alright. Thank you for the sisters in the sorority and for giving me the opportunity to talk to Mr. Mackey. I am thankful that you helped me get hired at the school district. Thank you Lord for everything that you do. It might be stupid to say, and slightly repetitive but I am very relieved and blessed that you have a destined plan. I pray and ask you to watch over and protect your people in the Middle East. Help those with mental illness. Please help Char find a good paying job and the ability to support her and Matthew. Watch over Vivian, both my grandma and the girl from middle school. Help them find you and love you. Watch over Granny and Grandpa and may their marriage continue to be strong. I pray that Granny heals well. Finally, I want to end my prayers tonight by asking you to watch over my future spouse. Protect him, keep him out of harm, and help him do your will. I love you Lord. Thank you always,

Ashley